Random notes from the Pre-Easter season
Mar. 22nd, 2008 06:22 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kitewithfishI was really homesick yesterday and today, but a skype home has made me feel better. I don't get enough news from home- I keep them updated via this blog so that tends not to encourage the exchange of letters or email, which leaves me a little underinformed.
I did get a lovely Easter basket from my mother- I've eaten all of the skittles already, which put me in a dangerous place sugar-wise, but means that I now have six little Spider-Man head plastic Easter eggs to play with. I'm considering putting them on thread and floating them from something in my room, but the is a distinct lack of places from which to hang things.
I've basically bummed around all day, and had a two hour conversation with my parents. We ended up talking about my friend who dumped me- My dad apparently didn't know anything about it, because my mother had not mentioned it out of the hope that it would resolve itself. But, our last communication was in January, and there' s been no change. Mom was of the opinion that by letting myself think about it after all this time, my former friend is accomplishing her semi-concious goal- to cause me pain and distress by her passive-aggressive action. At this point, I am pretty much of the opinion that the relationship would not really be worth saving- the best I can hope for will be civility in public, and avoidance in private. Even if we were able to be friends again, we wouldn't be going back to that place we were before this shit happened- we would just be paving over it. I would always know that, however good things seemed *now*, she was capable of just icing over on me without warning. I don't need that. That's scary and hurtful, and I just don't need it.
But enough of that!
I will be going to London on Monday to see friend Emma, and this time I will be brining an inflatable mattress and far less baggage. That seems like it would make for a much more pleasant trip for both of us- I also have some idea of how the heating in her building will work (or not, as the English seem to think is more appropriate) so I have enough in the realm of sweaters to keep me happy and warm. We're planning to go and see Hairspray, about which we are both more than a little crazy. I am going to bring some of my homework for the plane, and let that be that.
Easter is tomorrow, and I am planning on actually going to church. I was talking to my mother today about internship stuff (which at home are often full of church type stuff for me), and while I want to come back to Berlin and Europe in general, it seems like a better choice to do that after I finish my degree, and maybe take a year off to do something rather than just a few months more in the summer.
I did get a lovely Easter basket from my mother- I've eaten all of the skittles already, which put me in a dangerous place sugar-wise, but means that I now have six little Spider-Man head plastic Easter eggs to play with. I'm considering putting them on thread and floating them from something in my room, but the is a distinct lack of places from which to hang things.
I've basically bummed around all day, and had a two hour conversation with my parents. We ended up talking about my friend who dumped me- My dad apparently didn't know anything about it, because my mother had not mentioned it out of the hope that it would resolve itself. But, our last communication was in January, and there' s been no change. Mom was of the opinion that by letting myself think about it after all this time, my former friend is accomplishing her semi-concious goal- to cause me pain and distress by her passive-aggressive action. At this point, I am pretty much of the opinion that the relationship would not really be worth saving- the best I can hope for will be civility in public, and avoidance in private. Even if we were able to be friends again, we wouldn't be going back to that place we were before this shit happened- we would just be paving over it. I would always know that, however good things seemed *now*, she was capable of just icing over on me without warning. I don't need that. That's scary and hurtful, and I just don't need it.
But enough of that!
I will be going to London on Monday to see friend Emma, and this time I will be brining an inflatable mattress and far less baggage. That seems like it would make for a much more pleasant trip for both of us- I also have some idea of how the heating in her building will work (or not, as the English seem to think is more appropriate) so I have enough in the realm of sweaters to keep me happy and warm. We're planning to go and see Hairspray, about which we are both more than a little crazy. I am going to bring some of my homework for the plane, and let that be that.
Easter is tomorrow, and I am planning on actually going to church. I was talking to my mother today about internship stuff (which at home are often full of church type stuff for me), and while I want to come back to Berlin and Europe in general, it seems like a better choice to do that after I finish my degree, and maybe take a year off to do something rather than just a few months more in the summer.
