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May. 27th, 2009 09:53 pmI am in need of a project.
Not that I actually am in need of something to do- there are a whole slew of things I should be doing, (laundry, packing, dealing with housing, getting plans together to hang out with my friends over this last week before graduation), but I currently don't have homework and that is a Problem.
Because when I don't have homework, my hobbies start to take over the space that I left for them, and that is just.... that way lies madness.
Because, of any character trait I have that is not immediately apparent but defines a great deal of my inner life, it's the drive to be better at something than other people. And when the only thing filling up my life now is fanfiction and other random ways I pass my time, it means that I begin to notice: I am not a very good fan. I need to watch more TV or something, perhaps, but I am not well versed in canon. I can let whole weeks go by without noticing that I have missed the last three episodes of the show that I am currently geeking out about.
When I need to memorize Greek verbs, this is not so much a problem (not that I really spent that much time memorizing Greek verbs, because I find it kind of boring and much more interesting to find them in context in the text and make educated guesses). But now, all I have to do it hang out with my friends (who are on radically different sleep schedules than me, meaning they do not get up at dawn on their vacations.), it means that I being to notice: I did not see most of Buffy. And I don't really care about the Whedonless Buffy!movie coming out. And I didn't see WOLVERINE yet or STAR TREK. And I might just be a fraud on the geeky front, when it comes right down to it.
Which could become something I feel a burning pulsating need to remedy.
Crap.
In other news, I graduate officially on the 5th of June, and I have a slew of silly fun things to do with my buddies before then. So here's hoping.
Not that I actually am in need of something to do- there are a whole slew of things I should be doing, (laundry, packing, dealing with housing, getting plans together to hang out with my friends over this last week before graduation), but I currently don't have homework and that is a Problem.
Because when I don't have homework, my hobbies start to take over the space that I left for them, and that is just.... that way lies madness.
Because, of any character trait I have that is not immediately apparent but defines a great deal of my inner life, it's the drive to be better at something than other people. And when the only thing filling up my life now is fanfiction and other random ways I pass my time, it means that I begin to notice: I am not a very good fan. I need to watch more TV or something, perhaps, but I am not well versed in canon. I can let whole weeks go by without noticing that I have missed the last three episodes of the show that I am currently geeking out about.
When I need to memorize Greek verbs, this is not so much a problem (not that I really spent that much time memorizing Greek verbs, because I find it kind of boring and much more interesting to find them in context in the text and make educated guesses). But now, all I have to do it hang out with my friends (who are on radically different sleep schedules than me, meaning they do not get up at dawn on their vacations.), it means that I being to notice: I did not see most of Buffy. And I don't really care about the Whedonless Buffy!movie coming out. And I didn't see WOLVERINE yet or STAR TREK. And I might just be a fraud on the geeky front, when it comes right down to it.
Which could become something I feel a burning pulsating need to remedy.
Crap.
In other news, I graduate officially on the 5th of June, and I have a slew of silly fun things to do with my buddies before then. So here's hoping.
